WAT'S X WIT ME???

SENTIMENTALITY

Been in 1 recently, i dunno wat's x wit me...i reali felt confuse...i'm driving crazy n hv trauma right now.....i cn't even stand by tis ordeal & affliction...i reali wan 2 fuck off all tis stuff...bt i cn't even move n take action....y....

hu i m??? i dun even knw....i felt i m a ghost/stranger/zombie lik/cannibles/lik i gt H1N1/other diease...bt nobody 2 approach/kept near 2 me....i felt so lonely nw....lik i dun belong 2 tis world....lik i m frm another planet...lik i din hv any fren....lik i m a robot...din hv any feelings....i hv so much of things hv 2 say 2 some1 else....bt din hv a shadow in the whole street...

whr i m??? i dunno...i lost my way....i lost the light in front of me....there is so dark...i felt fear & sorrow 2 step 1 more step....adding i hv a major phobia bout tis kind of things....i cn't even saw my fingers,,,i m losing my sight right nw....

HU I M???? IS ANY1 THR???CN U TEEL ME HU I M??? nobody ans....i jz heard the echo...YYYY....i reali wan 2 knw the ans....in the dark, i fumble 4 finding the ans....suddenly i pass out....i still dunno whr i m nw....n i oso dunno when i awake....i continue on my way 2 home.....i m still searching the ans....i keep keep cuming bek al my memories....bt i cn't rmb when, whr/how....k...fine....4gt it...

I JZ KNW I HV 2 MUCH OF THINGS HV 2 DO....HELP ME FRM KILLING MYSELF....

ENVY & JEALOUS....

i dunno y i'd felt lik tat...i knw i shouldn't felt tat....bt i jz cn't 4gv him....i knw him 4 so long time....i knw hw he do 2 me....bcz of tis, icn't even touch his heart....sometimes cold, sometimes hot....i reali dun understand wat he wan 2 do wit me....even though his thinking....i knw i m nt the most important ppl inhis heart....cz he thought i m nt important 2 him....k...fine....i accept...bt i still being so siliy....cz i still b my best 4 him....y....i reali dunno....tat's y i felt confuse....do he using me....i dun ever knw...if he does 2 me...then hw should i do???? seperate wit him..../still wan 2 b his maid....i knw i hv 2 believe him, trust him, no doubt 2 him....cz he's my bf.....he's my bf!!!!! bt reali cn't 4gv him....wat i m envying him....bcum more handsome....n more gals wil fall in luv 2 him/ knw sth bout xxx., & he wil follow 2 do everythings they teach....knw so much bout trendy things/everybody praise him so handsome, rich, clever, knowledgable bout xxx...even his xxx....jz 1. 2 days, n his xxx was more more more than me...even frm other ngr....y??? isn't i m so bad??? i cn't ever win him???he's num1????i cn't do his most important ppl in his heart, no matter hw i put my effort???? i reali a loser???? yyy??? i dun knw tis is my own problem / his problem.....i searching the best xxx 4 myself n another part of me....bt he stil in the top...bt i won give in....& gv up...i'll b the winer at last .....jz wait....it won take so long time.....b patient....i'll show my best....dun ever despised so much.....i'll instead ur places.....i'm sry if i do tis 2 u....my sweetie

SCERET

Been in 1 recently, i m searching sum sceret....2 do my best....4....hahaha~~~

FAILURE

Haizz~~i cn't sign up anything nw....mayb is my pw was 2 long....even though cbox....wat nt match, gt problem in my input,,,,,wtf....sien liao lo....cannot ply anything....except blogger.....is sum1 cn gv a helping hand 2 me???

STUFF

2 much of things hvn complete yet....result oso hvn take....form 3 books oso hvn buy....haixzxz