MY INNER VOICE~

YEAH!!!!! FINALLY EXAM IS OVER!!!!

AND STILL HOLIDAY AGAIN!!!!

GOD HAPPY NOW!!!!

SO HIGH!!!!

But now suddenly couldn't shout and scream anymore...
suddenly no more feel about it...
suddenly feel so empty...
and lonely...
Christine,,,what are you thinking???
stop it, ok?
now is holiday, you should take a rest d...
stop thinking the stuff d...
i truely understand what are you thinking,
but you please hold it..ok???
take a deep breath,
close your eyes,
count to ten,
imagine the rainbow is in front of you,
and the angel and jesus will come to you...
Christine, you must be strong...
don't cry in this moment...
the god will come to you soon...
and you will rest in peace, with Michael Jackson...
stop thnking about it d...
please Christine!!!! I BEGGED YOU!!!!
don't....
you are too weak to stand all this,
so please please...
don't ever try to thinking about it...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Recently there are so many things happened on me...
and i have no time to post it on my blog...
so now, i going to reflesh back my sweet-bitter memories...
Studies~~~
study was so tough...
actually i hate study so much...
but i know that's for my own future,
so i have to study from now...
before exam,,,
everyone was struggle so much in the book...
everyone was so worried about the exam...
eveyone was holding the books every single moment...
everyone was dissucusing with friends and teacher...
including me...i was living in horrible too...
and the exam finally come on...
i still don't have any confidence to take the exam...
on the half way, i almost want to give up everything.
but i just try my best to answer all the question...
it's already perfect...
not like the others...
actually i really worried about my result,
maybe is in first class, so i have to put more effort than the others,
but i already know i couldn't fight with the other,
they all so pro, not like me...
i'm so tiny in class...they will not care me.
haizz, in first class also not a good thing...
but i will do all my best!!!
Christine, i believe you can do it.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Friendship forever~~~
i had fought with my best friend,
and she don't want to forgive me, even already 4 months...
i don't know what i should say to her, although i already apologise to her.
what's going on???
i know that's my fault, so that's why i said sorry to you,
but why you don't forgive me?
now i have nothing to say d..all i have to do, already do,
what you want to act on me, just act la...
don't show me the face.
but i really want to get back...
i try to win back your heart, but you ignore.
i try to talk to you, and you ignore too,
i try to do everything just want to be friend with you again, but why are you treating me so cool??
i really don't understand...
now i feel so lonely, empty, sorrow, sad...
in the class, i'm sitting alone, sometimes is quite happy, because no one will disturb, but at the corner is very hot, like i'm sitting beside the sun,
furthermore, is lonely...i feel so lonely, when i need someone help in my studies, or i got something to talk...
haizz, i'm so tiny in class,
no one will care me...
they even laugh at me...
everytime, when i think about it ialso will shed my tears...
so i don't want to talk anymore!!!!!
i hate to go to school!!!!
i hate loneliness!!!!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

and he is
Relationship~~~
What is he acting to me again???
so sucksss.
Recently got so many things happened on him.
And i just don't know how to tell...
one month, already one month, we didn't met in school, and even talk on phone,
you let me so worried you...
you gantung prefect,
you fought with a chinese guy,
you printed out a sensitive issue photos,
you still thinking of the girl,
you had hurt me so deep and make me worried about you...
that day i checked something on your facebook, i'm sorry that i go and check your personal thing, i knew i'm no manner, but i really worried about you..sorry. :(
i knew that you couldn't forget the girl that you love...
i'm so hurt when i knew that, because i'm jealous and envied the girl.
i can tell the truth - i jealous and envy...
but now it's already gone!!!!! just forget!!!! notice the angel that looking for you...please, don't let me worried about you again.
i couldn't say ''i love you'' anymore.

really tired of all this.
Christine, you must not fall down in this moment.
remember the god will lead you to the another world.