Monday, October 25, 2010

LATE NIGHT 'YOUNG' OWL

Gosh~
don't know how to describe my feelings now.
Almost every night i got the same thing, same situation.
INSOMNIA!!!!!!!!!!!
Before PMR is already serious,
Yet, now, PMR is OVER,
I'm still the same,
And now,
I think is become serious than serious.
It's WORST!!!!!!!!!
Before that, I thought i'm fear about the coming soon of PMR,
But now, PMR is over for a few weeks d,
It supposed to have a sweet dream and wake up in fresh on the next morning,
But why i still can't get into sleep??????
Every morning wake up in sleeplessly,
The panda eyes in going to become darker than darker,
Even though I applied layers of concealer or foundation on the big flat eye bag,
The dark circle under the eye is still obviously appear on eyes.
Every midnight is the same...
For hours and hours got to count the stars on the purple blue sky,
or keep on pressing on the phone just to wish that i'll fall asleep soon.
It's a disease?
Oh NO!!!!!!!! Please DON'T!!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE DON'T ACT THIS TO ME....
PLEASE...
I BEGGED YOU...

It's i thinking him too much?
I think so...
I know i can't fall asleep without thinking of him.
But it's too serious?
For minutes and hours i'm...
If he knew, i'm sure he'll scold me...

Last night is still the same---can't sleep soundly.
And forced me can't go to school this morning.
Early in the morning become so blur.
Dizzy and pain all around my head.
I almost pass out when i open the door to tell dad that i'm not going to school.
The whole body get shaking with the cool air comes down...
It's seems like get sickness soon...
Please God...
Bless me please.
and how about you?
Will you bless me too?
Will you hold me tight when i need you?
Will you rock me in your warm arm when i can't fall asleep?
Will you get near to my body when i'm hardly shaking?
Will you ever do the thing to me again?.......
I'm wondering....
How i wish you would...
Miss your passion...:(

Or you just want me to die in front of you?
Cruelly and violencely tear me into pieces,
With the sharp jaws that i have,
heavily drink my fresh blood, and fresh flesh?
Be a vampire...Edward Cullen.

If you think that if you do this you'll feel happy and powerful,
I please you would do this to me...
yeah..
Please kill me...

What i hope now is
I CAN SLEEP SOUNDLY TONIGHT!!!!

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