GOD...I NEEDED YOU RIGHT NOW...T_______T

What's a day??? I was wondering...i needed to know what's going on...

i tried so hard to hold on, but i couldn't controlled my feeling....i just want to shed tears....as much as i could....and i finally do it.....

Today morning went to school for the kelas tambahan....went for two hours only....i thought i can say something to Jessie, but she was so busy, so I don't want to disturb her la...

Back to the jail....do homework...still very blurred about the crazy math....haizz...so black....math not good mean not good...no matter how much effort that i put, also couldn't win the other people...so failure...

3.00p.m went for tuition...

then after tution, i wait for my aunt car...yi yin was playing my phone, then suddenly she dropped my phone on the floor...then i shouted so loud...ka xing also laughed at me...they all also said '' i don't regconise you...'' god!!!! what do you all mean??? this is my new phone, and i never dropped it from so high....jesus....my heart so pain when i saw this scene....haixx...they just simply said sorry to me, but never notice how sad that i feel...now recall back the scene, also have a heartache....anyway, that's fine....i got wrong too...

Watched TV, because no mood....

After that, i called sis to teached me do some math question....but she scolded me so loud...

'' why are you so stupid??? ''.....

"don't show the face to me...."

god...she hurted me so deep....no one can cure the pain, when i heard this kind of word from her mouth....i almost cried in that case...but very fortunate, i still can controlled the feeling....

then my cousin come to my house....he took my calculator....i called him to return to me, because i need to used it...but my bro threw it to me....i saw my calculator flew down from the air...god!!! that's my calculator!!!! how could you throw it in this way???

i staright away went to my room and cried...god...

i said i needed you right now...but the god dosen't send you to me...even the angle to convinced me....i cried so hard in my room...it's such a hard time, when i shed down my sorrow tears...when the thickly salty tears trickled down on my face, i really need his word...i mean his convince...i really need his hug to make me feel warmer...at least i don't think so i'm alone in this world...i really need his hand to take me away from the '' war house ''....i want him to walk with me in hand in hand....i need his shoulder to cried on...as hard as i can....i really need to see him right now, even just for a second....and now, i realised i love you....i need you in my life...more than ever....

I LOVE YOU...XXX....FOREVER....CHIRST...